Staring at the pale white walls, tears beading down my cheeks like the rain on the windows, my heart crying out for you. Where have you gone? It weeps, missing you, and the things I loved about you dancing through my mind like a ballerina across the black and empty stage. My heart cracks. Where have you gone, it cries out again, getting no answer in return. My body racked with pain, lies there motionless, knowing that no matter how much I ache, you will never walk through those doors or hold me again. Call to him, my mind screams, he will come if he knows you are in pain. Another crack shakes my body. No! My heart answers, I shut this door, I walked away. I deserve this pain. I scream as the heart cracks again. The memories of our relationship wrap me in their warm, delicious arms, keeping me in a numb state, believing there is hope for another day with you. As the numb washes over my body, I surrender my heart to the ache. Letting it consume my heart completely. I asked for this. So once again I lay motionless, tears beading down my cheeks like rain, just staring at the pale white walls.

I wrote this right after a break up with a particularly extraordinary young man. I kinda hope he reads it....its a little embarrassing but you know, whatever. My inner most feeling revealed. Doesn't happen often.

:) yeah. Peace and Love always.
Rachael